So, I think I'm giving up. I really don't have anymore fight in me to keep finding a job. I just can't find anything and I don't know people who know people. I'm kind of kicking myself for not sucking-up to my professors in school. Maybe I could have managed a job with one of them? I just really can't take this anymore. I'm not much of a fighter. I even called back about an application I put in at Shake's Frozen Custard. The manager said she didn't want to hire me because she didn't want me leaving right away. But I NEED a job and no one wants to hire me. I swear. This is a fact. I'm afraid I'm going to need to get out of my lease because I can't pay the bills. It's really a bad situation.
Anyway, onwards and upwards. Since I have so much time on my hands, I have no choice but to use them to touch myself. I can't stop masturbating. I'm horny all the time AND I look at porn all the time. It's like I've decided to drop everything in the real world and concentrate on touching myself. I believe I'm up to four times a day. Could be more? My hard drive is almost entirely filled with porn. I don't know why I need so much selection either. Haha. It's sick. I'm a hoarder by nature (observe my freezer) and I guess I think I need lots of selection, so, I have lots of back up. I just need to breakdown and let go of some. But there are a lot of hot guys I have. I mean. A LOT. Maybe I just need a boyfriend? Someone obligated to have sex with me, though I'm a bum. But that's not going to happen especially since I think I've gained some weight and I have NO gym membership. Oh, and I'm not doing yoga. So, when you see me next, I'll be 300 lbs. and waddling down to the local Baskin Robins. Mmm...
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