"Don't drink alone, Scarlett. People always find out and it ruins their reputation"

Reason no. 10,238 why I love Gone With The Wind. Rhett Butler. That fucker is the best character to happen to cinema since Tiny Tim. This character is from a book and the statement is a fallacy, I know.

My theory stands as this. As a youngster, children identify with Scarlett O'Hara. And why not? She loves Tara and desires Ashley Wilkes. Easy enough for any child to understand.

However, as an adult you identify with Rhett. Or at least I do. I love how callous he can be. How arrogant and right-on-the-money he is about everything. Especially en regard to Scarlett O'Hara. He saw right through her bullshit and called her out on it.

I mean, he has all the best lines. I'm watching it right now and he's dropping bomb after bomb of hilarity.



- "Far be it for me to question the teachings of childhood." ~ re: the existence of hell which Scarlett was taught as a child
- "If you had to do it all over again, you'd do no differently. You're like the thief who isn't the least bit sorry he stole, but terribly, terribly sorry he's going to jail."
- "I can't go all my life waiting to catch you between husbands."
- "Did you ever think of marrying just for fun?"
- "Heaven help the man who really loves you."

And again, this is what I want in a relationship. I mean, I don't want someone who will gleefully take my bullshit. I need someone with a spine. Not that I'm perpetually lying, but there are those times when people get lippy, or just have a stick up their ass. I need someone who sardonically throws back some sass. Someone who will make me wake-up from my bullshit spell and make me laugh at how ridiculous I'm being at the moment.



And...I'm kind of a sadist. I like a boss. But not a boss-bitch. Sorry Kelis.

Another type for me...

The thing is I really want someone like Adian on "Sex and the City". Someone chill and likes to stay at home. But he never seemed to mind when Carrie went out. I am a lot like Carrie. Knows how to spend money but never has any. I do need independence and really need someone to allow that. But I know I need to work on being around someone for a long time.



I also love that he's tall and snugglely. He's like a teddy. You just want to hug him. I've really been in a cuddlely kind of mood lately.

Haha Horoscope!

Today I took the "What's Your Love Profile" Quiz on Blogthings and I'm really amazed at the results. Sometimes these quizzes just hold so much truth and are so insightful. The results are below.

Aquarius - Your Love Profile

Your positive traits: You've got a ton of friends, so you have no problem meeting new people. You're great at thinking up new things and activities to do with your sweetie. You tend to let the little things slide in relationships... and focus on the bigger picture. Your negative traits: In relationships, it tends to be your way or the highway. You can never open up completely to someone - you have to keep parts of yourself secret. You're cold and reserved, which leaves your partner feeling unloved. Your ideal partner: Flexible, because you're not going to be the one to compromise! Is smart and quirky with lots of weird interests... including you. A true individualist who doesn't care what anyone thinks Your dating style: Stimulating. You prefer dates that explore a shared interest - like a lecture, muesum tour, or concert. Your seduction style: Wacky. Your wild ideas have your lover wondering what's next. Insatiable - it takes a lot to satisfy your desires. Varied. You're eager to try things as soon as you learn about them. Tips for the future: Bring a little responsibility to your relationship - like showing up for dates! Compromise a little. It would kill you to do things your lover's way for once. Be aware of your partner's jealousy. Even though you aren't jealous, realize your partner is sometimes. Best color to attract mate: Sky blue Best day for a date: Wednesday

What's Your Love Profile?

The thing about my independence is spot on. I love to keep secrets from others. Little things. These things include errand running, going hiking, getting Taco Bell, going to see a movie: all by myself. I guess you can call it my S.S.B. Secret Single Behavior. (Jesus, I need to not watch "Sex and the City" for six months and grow a pair).I don't know why, but I like having my own time and doing my own things and then coming together at the end of the day and enjoying one another's company.

I mean, I don't think I could do the constant check-up on each other. Jordan and Bryan do that a lot. They know where each other is. I respect and would like a little privacy. But could I deal with someone doing there own things and not tell me? I do trust, but that's too risky. It opens your heart to get broken. Am I really that anxious for this to happen? But trust is the foundation of relationships. Ah, geez.

Ode to Sheniqua

Though our stories are contrived and bold,
There are people in our lives that can't begin to be disclosed
Where do you start to find where beauty begins?
How can man behold materials stronger than gold?

People bow at her feet for they look into God,
Such sights e'er from the eyes of angels

She is the reason why songs are composed,
why secrets unfold
She is why words are spoken,
why our hearts get broken
She is why men aren't worthy,
why women are guilty

Her name is but human,
eyes that conseal real ruin
These are the ones that shant be seen,
seeing has lead to believeing

Why there is man
Why I dare to write words that can't be spoken

My secret life...

I don't know if it's something I've just grown to appreciate, but I'm growing fond of working for the paper in Boonville. I mean, I am inconvienced by the drive and the fact that I don't write more, but it's nice to have something completely my own.



I'm fortunate to experience all these different kinds of people in the Boonville area. And I'm the only other person in Columbia (basically) that writes for the paper.

I just want to write more. I wish I could pick up some more stories and write for a publication in Columbia.

Rainy Days

I don't know why, but it's always appropriate to hear a sad song on rainy days. I just heard this song on the radio. It's so beautiful. (The album is won'erful. Buy it). Rufus and Death Cab are the best for rainy days.



Love of mine some day you will die
But I'll be close behind
I'll follow you into the dark

No blinding light or tunnels to gates of white
Just our hands clasped so tight
Waiting for the hint of a spark

If heaven and hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the no's on their vacancy signs
If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark

In Catholic school as vicious as Roman rule
I got my knuckles brusied by a lady in black
And I held my tongue as she told me
"Son fear is the heart of love"
So I never went back

If heaven and hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the no's on their vacancy signs
If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark

You and me have seen everything to see
From Bangkok to Calgary
And the soles of your shoes
are all worn down
The time for sleep is now
It's nothing to cry about
Cause we'll hold each other soon
In the blackest of rooms

If heaven and hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the no's on their vacancy signs
If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark
Then I'll follow you into the dark

--"I Will Follow You Into the Dark", Death Cab For Cutie

2007, she be rollin'!

Let's rock this bitch! Yeah, it's a new year. 2007! WOOT!!



I went and visited the roomie in STL. This was my first New Year's in another city with which I had no problem. We went to Bar Italia in the central west end. It was fun, I must admit. I didn't get super drunk, but I had a wee hangover the next day. It was one of those creepy drunks, too. It's champagne. It sneeks up and then bites! (Imagine Bugs Bunny sneeking up on someone. See him tip-toeing? But now imagine Bugs is a big bottle of champagne with ravenous, dull teeth).

I'm glad I got to celebrate with Stoned, Shenay, G and Eric. They're really awesome peeps. Hopefully more New Year celebrations are in our futures.

P.S. I can't believe how hard it is to find a photo of some New Year's fireworks. Plus, there are already countdowns to New Year's 2008. Let's not get ahead of ourselves people.

Today I got my new glasses. They're D & G and awesome. Yeah, they're also really bold looking. I mean, I look like I work at a magazine. So delicious!



I also kind of look like I'm going 'nam! They are really thick horned-rimmed glasses. I look like a neard for shizzle.

Tomorrow (today) is my interview at the bank. Hopefully I'll get the job because papa need some money. Wish me luck. Night loves!