The Trouble with Love is...

Okay, so another record needs to be straight. In my limited experience with love and relationships I haven't experienced the best partners, but I've learned a lot about what I want in a lover.

The guy I fooled around with my sophomore was way messed up for family and religious reasons. He was a Johovah's Witness. He did his whole coming out thing in college, but he went back in and started dating girls. Then I met him and he went through an existential life crisis realizing that he is gay and always will be. The thing is he was perfectly comfortable marrying a woman and spending a life together.

My first thought was: what about sex? Attraction? If you know you are gay and it feels good, why not live your life accordingly? For me to have an intimate, mature relationship that has a significant impact on my life, sex and sexual attraction must be a part of the equation.

He discribed a realtionship built on a different kind of love. This would be a love of admiration, respect and companionship.

All of those things should be in a loving relationship, but intimate relationships are also built on passion, are they not? With someone you love, you should experience all the different emotions that love can bring to you. This includes sex which is an expression of love.

Furthermore, to deny yourself of love in any of its incarnations, I believe, is the ultimate sin. We as God's creatures were meant to live a life of love. This is why I have a problem with organized religion. I feel a lot of religion (which is a good idea in theory) is built on the intolerance of those who are different and blindly following the Bible without logicial, rational analysis of it's human written words.

I think that being able to love freely and to experience love from wherever you find it is what we were given by God. This is his message for us. Granted you can twist my words against me, but I don't mean it in certain ways. This is how I feel. Especially in regard to homosexuality and its intolerance by people who argue of its sin.

I mean, how absured is it to go to hell for loving someone? That's the most rediculous thing I've heard. We as logically thinking creatures should have come to this conclusion.

"This is my religion"