Gratitude for Lack of Altitude

I really have no clue what is bothering me so much.

I'm stressed on the job front because this time I'm holding out for something that I'll be with for a while. Like a long while. But there are no jobs that I want in Mid-Mo. Seriously. My mom hasn't been too harsh on me, but I know she's annoyed about the whole borrowing money thing.

I also enjoy not working. Haha. I mean I enjoy not having a grinding routine. I just want a really kick-ass job now. I want something totally deserving of my time and intelligence. The Humane Society just sucked the life out of me. Not because the work was excruciating or too difficult, but because it occupied so much of my time and emotion. Honestly I'm better off, but I miss my co-workers and I miss having a pay check. Getting fired totally side-swiped me.



I'm also very lonely. I just want a boyfriend. I need that part of my life to be fulfilled and the void always seems to be getting wider and wider. My patience also seems to be thinning and dissolving.

I'm going to go after this Missouri Theater job. I'll flood their inbox with damn e-mails until they respond dammit!

I think I'm going to go to STL this weekend to pursue an internship at the magazine Sheniqua is currently interning for right now. I'd love to work along side her, but I don't know if she'll be there? They're having an internship open house and I think that will be better for me than a fucking cover letter. I don't know why cover letters are hard for me, but they are. Maybe it's because I feel they're so limiting. I mean think about it: you have four paragraphs top to sell yourself and your experience when all you want to write is, "I have a fucking college education, can pick-up anything if instructed competently, and will bring an awesome dynamic to the workplace." Seems simple enough, right? But that is not the case. I hope I can see Sheniqua. I miss that girl. Plus, a spring internship would be great, granted I'd have to get a part-time job to support myself, but the experience would be amazing. Combine that with my writing experience already PLUS contacts in the publishing industry. Hopefully that could land me a job in Cali.



Bottom line: I think freelance, for all of its chaos, would be a perfect field for me. It's not 9 to 5. It's unconventional.

I never thought I'd be so against the establishment, but I can't do the daily grind.

I was talking with Amanda a couple of hours ago. She's been going through basically the same stuff, job and male frustrations, and we talked about how these hard times will only make us stronger and more interesting. We both don't want that same daily pony show and we're scrapping by. It's hard for sure. But we also are having more fun. This is true. Time is also going by more slowly, too. And we both agree that because we aren't doing the normal routine we are experiencing more and enjoying our time more because we have the time to do so. Too bad everyone can't have that.

I'm grateful.

Planet Earth

These photos I found on the internet. They're amazing!

Eh!

I need a job. I don't want one though. Unless it's an amazing one. Fucking workforce.

Quotin' Quotables

"I Love women, I just don’t fall in love with them, but I’m attracted to them. I find their bodies beautiful, and I can relate to them as the pursues, because of course as a gay man you understand what it is to be taken – to be an object to your partner – as well as what it’s like to be the aggressor"~ Tom Ford.



...Amen my brotha'! I think that's one of the most perfect descriptions for people to understand what the hell it's like to be gay.

Swoon!

Across The Universe

Hello blog which I have neglected. How are you? I can't believe I've been so wrapped up in my life I haven't written anything. Not that I endorse not living your life, but still, I need my outlets. Well now I'll have time now that I don't have my stupid job, which "my heart isn't in" anymore. Eh. Onwards and upwards.

I've just seen Across the Universe for the second time. I really, really love this film. It's been getting mixed reviews. I think that's only because people are uncomfortable with an original musical set to all Beatles songs.



The movie tells the tale of two star-crossed lovers set in the turbulent 60s and how that decade changes them.

This movie has totally rejuvenated my love of the Beatles. It's great to see really creative artists exposing their music to a whole new generation.




And the majority of the creativity goes to director Julie Taymor. She comes from a background of theater direction. She directed "The Lion King" on Broadway, which if you know how it looks like at all tells you what you're in for. She's also directed the films Titus, which is visually stunning, and Frida.

The art direction is A-M-A-Z-I-N-G!!

The young cast of actors is also very impressive. Evan Rachel Woods keeps surprising me with her acting choices. She's excellent as Lucy. Some hightlights: "Hold Me Tight," "It Won't Be Long" and "Blackbird." But all of her singing is excellent.




My new celebrity crush, Jim Sturgess, is excellent as well. He's the dark-haired, dark-eyed dreamer and you fall for him immediately. Try not to. Look for his compelling expressions in "I've Just Seen A Face". Swoon as you watch his mouth hum. Also "All My Loving," "Something," "Strawberry Fields Forever," "Revolution," "Across the Universe," and "All You Need Is Love." But let's face it, he's excellent all around.



Watch for cameos by Bono (boo), Salma Hayek, Joe Cocker, and Eddie Izzard. The rest of the cast deserves mentioning as well: Dana Fuchs, Joe Anderson, Martin Luther McCoy & T.V. Carpio. Loved it. ***A***

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